Oh, September.

How time flies fast. I remember my January, the start of the year, when I have been battling out emotions and nursing my pride. A couple of months later, I still faced the same dilemma but this time, I found the courage and motivation to resolve it.

What happened recently (on top of other things): This person assumed that I am someone of poor character.

Since I vowed never again to write blog entries with my emotions written all over it, let me just share with you things I have learned while I was under this very stressful situation.

1. People, even if they like you, will think ill of you. This, I have to learn the hard way. You see, I am the type of person who always gives the benefit of the doubt whenever someone commits mistakes. I always try to see both sides of the situation and I always try to put myself in other people’s shoes. How naïve of me to think that people will do the same for you!
2. Sometimes, apologizing fails. The problem I have with apologies is that, it (sort of) gives a person another license to hurt you again. I feel that people can hurt someone and get away with it easily—simply by apologizing. It is like; the word “Sorry” has lost its true essence. What sucks over what happened was that, this person never had the courage to talk and to apologize to me personally. As if the sincerity of this person’s apology will transcend over this person’s text messages.
3. When you let go of the person that hurt you, you will become happier. This, I can guarantee. When I stopped agonizing whether I have done things to this person that triggered those ill-thoughts (which in my defense, this person said that I have not done anything), my mind became more peaceful and stress-free. Although, I have resolved not to be of speaking terms with this person (for as long as I am not comfortable over what happened), I believe this move will maintain whatever respect I have that is left for this person.

Let me end this nonsense of sorts by quoting,

One of the greatest mental freedoms is truly not caring what others think of you.